Until Today.
You’d think my heart sees something
my mind knows isn’t there…
like your priority
like your attention
& affection
though my eyes have always been
accused of being too hopeful—
as I looked at
un-piercing walls
& still tried to nail through them;
as i looked at
untamed forests
& struggled to domesticate them;
& I’ll admit— I can be overly optimistic at times.
which is why I tried to love you & only asked
that you love me too
like you said that you did— & so I believed.
now my mind is left to give my
heart something that’s no longer there…
like openness
like warmth
& even interest
& though my spirit has always been
accused of being too gated—
as I looked at
broken hearts &
tried to shield & guard mine;
as i looked at
preoccupied dreams of love &
preventing them in mine;
& I’ll admit— I’ve been overly protective at times.
which is why I tried to open up to love you & asked only
that you love me too…
like you said that you wanted to—
& swayed me to believe
& so I believed;
until today.
Mark Anthony Thomas
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